Religion to me has always been far to eerie for me to be a part of. I’ve never been able to amass the courage to blindly accept or follow the principles set forth by organized religion. Dare I say spirituality has been more so my thing, but even saying that word aloud bring me shivers. It seems almost cult like. Anyway, I understand the need to attribute our existence to something so that we don’t have to swallow meaninglessness in a big world. I understand the need to be a part of something bigger than yourself, to see the whole picture and to feel accounted for in an otherwise lonely world. I understand the basic pillars of religion like: don’t kill your neighbour or covet them. Don’t be mean etc. etc.
But still, among all of this, I still see it as the club that I could never belong to. Moreover, I’ve finally gotten to a point in my life where I don’t look down upon people who ARE a part of the club. I see it as a useful tool in some ways, but I mostly see it as a dangerous power, that ought to be treated carefully. Dare the notion of a omnipotent being land in the hands of someone power hungry, it’s disconcerting.
I just watched the documentary God Loves Uganda, and it left me feeling very hopeless for the current state of affairs happening in Uganda right now. A church based out of Kansas with dangerous dogma and a cult like following has taken to Uganda with their extreme evangelicalism to rid Uganda of homosexuality for good. It is their creed that homosexuality is to blame for the rampant spread of HIV/AIDS in this particular African nation. They’ve convinced local leaders to back their notion that homosexuality should be punishable – and since having aired the documentary, homosexuality is now a lifetime in prison should you get caught engaging any form of homosexuality. How terribly, terribly sad.
Now I know what you’re thinking. This kind of extremism can exist in all cultures and people with certain ideologies. There exist extreme Atheists alongside extreme Muslims. I know. I certainly don’t spend my days lumping them all together in this awful religion cesspool of hatred and anger. But this worries me. This business in Uganda. It is for this reason and so many more that I could never identify with any kind of church, extreme or not. Regardless, I will respect those that choose to be a part of a religion that choose to not confront me with my non beliefs at inappropriate times. I’m trying to eat dinner here okay? Don’t bother me.
Here’s what I do believe in, and let me tell you, it’s terribly warm and fuzzy. I believe that we are an advanced form of a virus, running freely on this beautiful earth. (Okay I was kidding about being warm and fuzzy) I believe in the Gaia Hypothesis. That the earth and all of the creatures that live on it, interact to form a self regulating system. This self regulating system rids itself of pests – like us, in the form of extreme weather and inhospitable habitat. Whew – sounds a little doomsday-ish. I promise I’m not accumulating canned goods and keeping them in my basement…for now.
I just believe that we as people are a part of a much larger system. This system being the ecosystem. I believe there is an availability of goods and resources here to be used AS NEEDED, and with enough regeneration time in-between for the resource to be naturally replenished. I believe that western culture has, mostly gotten it wrong. I believe we’ve been given a beautiful place to sow our roots, create a home and have families. However – the great unravelling (as my grandmother would say), is occurring. We’re headed in a bad direction and we need a fundamental paradigm shift to turn it around.
So believe in a God, or don’t. Whatever you fancy is no matter to me. Just be smart, take only what you need and give back what you can. Find peace wherever available and try not to let yourself become jaded. (Ha! That’s rich coming from me)